They’re going to find out….

For a couple of months now, I’ve been thinking about starting a podcast. And it’s been playing in the back of my mind for a while because I absolutely love listening to podcasts.
It’s something that I do almost every day.
I spend a lot of time in the car, so that time is spent listening to amazing people tell interesting stories, hearing about people overcoming challenges and living extraordinary lives. Podcasts allow me to make the most of the time in the car, learning valuable lessons from successful people all over the world.
Learning from people who have come before me, opening up my mind to a new perspective allows me to take new knowledge and new inspirations into my day.
I prefer Podcasts, to listening to the radio because the radio can become very monotonous and mind-numbing.
You can choose any topic and I guarantee you will find a podcast about it, with very interesting people. It has become one of favorite pastimes, listening to the likes of Lewis Howes, Lori Harder, Brooke Castillo, Sophia Amoruso and Tony Robbins, just to name a few.
So I thought to myself, I want to create a Podcast.
So I thought, what would it be about? Who would it be for? What type of content would I have? Who would I like to interview?
Once I answered these questions, I was able to create a list of people I would like to collaborate with and then that gave me my answer, of what my podcast would be.
I have never recorded a podcast or done anything like this before. I have no idea what I am doing.
And just as I had that thought my mind took me back to my highschool days where I took a extra curricular class on “How to speak (become an announcer) for Radio”.
It’s so funny how life brings it all back around. I remember I really liked that class, not that I ever wanted to be a Radio Announcer. Yet, now as I recall that memory, how useful it was. I even remember the breathing exercises and speaking activities we did to prepare. How amazing is our brain to recall such a memory I had not thought of in over 15 years.

So I went about my way to figure out everything I would need to create a podcast:
– Ordered a Microphone on Ebay
– Listened to other Podcasts on how to record a Podcast
– Downloaded the Audacity program to record said podcast
– Created some mock ups of Cover images for the podcast on Canva
– Started creating a list of episode Ideas
– Watched a couple of You Tube Videos for extra how to’s
– Watched videos on how to promote the podcast
– Read some articles on how to upload to iTunes and Soundcloud
– Searched and found some music to use for Intro and outro

This was all over about a month and the idea just percolated in the back of my mind for a while.
There was something holding me back from actually doing the podcast. There was a little fear coming up around it. I wasn’t sure this was something I could do and be successful at.
And I kept thinking, “who am I to create a podcast? Who am I to go and do what all these other more qualified people are doing?
Would I be just copying other people? Or what could I possibly teach other people and who the hell would want to listen to me?”

Through all the clients I have coached through similar situations, I am aware that this is just a little bit of fear showing up. And also an aspect of the Imposter syndrome. The feeling of being found out a fraud. That people are going to find out that I don’t know what I’m talking about, or that I have no idea or that I know anything about business or whatever else the little inner critic wants to throw at me.
Thoughts like that can be very damaging to our confidence, self esteem and detrimental to our goals.
So the idea just sat there in the back of my mind for a little while, and I talked about it with a couple of people and they had some really great encouragement for me, saying “Go ahead you should totally do that.” But I didn’t get any closer to recording anything. That microphone was looking pretty lonely on my desk at home.

A couple of weeks later, as the universe likes to conspire for you when you have great ideas – I was listening to the radio one-day instead of a podcast and an ad came on about a competition for up-and-coming podcasts! Hello!

So that day, I got home and looked into the competition. I had 3 weeks to get it done.
So do you know what I did? I waited another 2 weeks before doing anything.
Nothing like a deadline to push through the procrastination. So I thought, the only way to push past my fear was to face it head on.
I researched more about the Imposter Syndrome and even found quite a few famous people that had come across it. Emma Watson, Tina Fey, Kate Winslet and Michelle Pfeiffer, amazingly successful female actresses that have reportedly struggled with the Imposter syndrome.

“[N]ow when I receive recognition for my acting, I feel incredibly uncomfortable. I tend to turn in on myself,” she admits. “I feel like an imposter.” Emma Watson

“I didn’t come from Juilliard,” she said of her acting beginnings in 1978. “I was just getting by and learning in front of the world. So I’ve always had this feeling that one day they’re going to find out that I’m really a fraud, that I really don’t know what I’m doing.” Michelle Pfeiffer.

“The beauty of the impostor syndrome is you vacillate between extreme egomania and a complete feeling of: ‘I’m a fraud! Oh God, they’re on to me! I’m a fraud!’
“So you just try to ride the egomania when it comes and enjoy it, and then slide through the idea of fraud.” Tiny Fey

So what is the Imposter Syndrome?
According to Wikipedia:

Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon or fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a concept describing high-achieving individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a “fraud”.

I don’t believe you have to be a high-achieving individual, I believe that anyone wanting to create something new, push themselves out of their comfort zone or put themselves out there have experienced this at some point in their lives.

I don’t know what I’m doing
I don’t know how to do this
I don’t have the skills
I don’t have the ability
I don’t have the talent
I don’t have the knowledge
I don’t have the charisma… the confidence…. the qualifications…. the reputation.
All of the above.

So the question is – how do we overcome this? How do I push past the fear and achieve the things we want to achieve without the feeling of not being worthy or like we are going to be found out a fraud?

In the words of Tina Fey, she deals with it, kind of like riding a rollercoaster. Understanding that it’s gonna happen, there are going to be times we feel like that and being able to acknowledge the thought and allow it to pass by and still get on with the game. Being able to focus on what you want to achieve and get it done. Push past the fear, acknowledge the thoughts and choose more empowering ones to overcome it.
What thoughts pull you out of the imposter syndrome and create the motivation to keep going? That would be empowering, so we feel like it is something that, we could achieve?

I believe in myself
I have life experience to teach and expand for other people to learn new things
I believe the message I have to share is relevant and important
I believe that the right person will hear what I have to say and it will make a difference in their lives
If believe I am just as worthy as any one else in this field

And if I do do it and someone called me a fraud could I handle that?
What is the meaning of a fraud?

Being fraudulent
Something involving criminal activity or fraudulent behaviour involving deception of some kind.

I hold a high enough standard for myself to know that I will not perform any kind of criminal activity or ask for credit for other people’s achievements or activities.
I want to have my own voice, I want to share my stories and share stories of others from their words so that others can have insight into their lessons and create inspiring moments to change their own lives.

Where in your life do you experience the Impostor syndrome? Have you ever experienced feeling like a fraud? Feeling like you may be found out? Feeling like you don’t deserve what you want?

There is enough in this world for everybody.
There is no need for us to believe that we don’t have a voice or we don’t deserve to be heard.
Change the dialogue in your mind and things will change.
Focus on what you can bring to the table, how you can add value, how you can support other people in life.
Take yourself out of the equation, do it for the love, the mission and the bigger picture.
And stop comparing yourself to anyone else.

Allow yourself to make mistakes. This does not make you wrong, or a failure, and does not make you a fraud.
Failure is just a little bit of feedback. Being able to notice failure as feedback rather than making yourself wrong, helps you to overcome and move forward.
When the weatherman gets it wrong, we don’t call him a fraud and tell him he can never never do the weather again!
When a scientist doing an experiment has something go wrong, does that make them a fraud? If they they fail that experiment 17,000 times before they find the right way that works, they were never an impostor or a failure.
You just get back up and give something new a go.

Choose to believe that you deserve the success, as much as the next person.
We were all born deserving. We were all born with the ability to be our unique selves.
When a new baby is born, we don’t look at that brand new baby and decide what he deserves in life.
So how ever old you are now, you are no less worthy than the day you were born.

Remind yourself of that.

Be more you. The world needs more people who are willing to be themselves, be true to who they are and be upfront and honest about that. Find what you love to do and go do that.

So I recorded my first podcast from beginning to end in three takes. I had goosebumps and butterflies in my stomach, I was short of breath and nervous but I pushed through and I got it done.
And when I was finished, I entered it into the competition and I was beaming from ear to ear.

So exciting times! I’m about to launch a new podcast..

It will be called The Next Level Life Podcast and it’s going to cover exciting topics, have amazing guest speakers and hopefully bring you a new perspective into creating a happy and successful life and business.

I hope that you will listen. Launch date coming soon. I will keep you posted.

Now go find what you love to do, push past the fear and take your life to the next level!

2 comments
Samari says August 6, 2017

Hi Christine! Love this blog. I have definitely experienced the imposter syndrome. You have confirmed for me, that I’m not alone and that is okay when I feel like I don’t deserve something because people can find out that I’m leaning on the go. I’m going to push through, as you recommend.
Thanks for your kind words and the affirmations!
Best wishes in your new podcast. Sounds exciting!

Samari